Just musing

I don’t know if it's me or if it's my disorder.

But I have been unmotivated to work and do anything.

I enjoy writing, and it's been challenging to write.

I don’t want to parade around that it’s my Schizophrenia, but it might be.

I’ve always had a mentality of not using my mental condition as an excuse.

This could be a good thing, but if I’m not careful, I may burn out quickly.

I don’t feel symptomatic.

I’ve been faithfully taking my medicines.

I’ve had a couple of people tell me not to take the medicine.

I would have to disagree with them.

I am in such a better place by taking the medicine.

The reason I may not be Bipolar or Schizoaffective is because I’m taking the medicine.

Without it, I am a wreck.

I thought about Mania and how it manifests in my life.

Mania is destructive and harms me and others.

It’s not worth it.

Every time I am manic, I always end up in the hospital.

You can see I am manic by how I write.

My writing gets hijacked by my manic brain, and there’s no telling what I’ll say.

It’s all over the place.

Thank God I am not there.

Depression has been lifted in my life thanks to Trintellix.

I suffocated silently at the pull of depression.

Since taking the med, I am a new person.

I can glide and float along rather than letting chains bind me.

This recent episode doesn’t feel like depression.

I’m not sure what it is.