My First Love: A Poem

A love letter to a woman who slipped through my hands.

It was 2007, it was like heaven.

She was a gift

Katiana, the girl who told me I was too good for her

I was high on life and drunk in teenage love.

Katiana, I wanted to pursue you.

I wanted to know you like God knew man when He created him.

Breathing life into his lungs, awakening the dirt

We were supposed to laugh together.

We were supposed to grow old together.

I didn't care about your past but our future together.

I wanted to pursue you like I was pursuing Christ.

I would have sacrificed my everything for you.

I wanted to know your embrace.

To chase the dopamine with you

Discovering the depths of our destiny together.

We were flames that had never felt the consumption of the forest.

We were a puddle compared to the ocean we could have been.

We were the lion and lioness ruling over our kingdom.

Be patient but be persistent were the final words your father echoed into my ear.

I desperately dangerously distilled the gravity of who you are.

I knew about the baggage you brought to the table.

Yet, I carried the cross of forgiveness and wanted us to unite together.

If only I could say I love you.

I am like a man on fire jumping into the ocean of your love.

I am like a dry mouth drinking from your well of life.

Now, you're a memory and vapor in the wind of what could have been.

Goodbye, Katiana.

I will never forget what you taught me as a boy and now a man.